It has been said that the only thing that is constant is change. Of course this is true! Since the beginning of time, our world has participated in the game of change; always competing to be better, grow faster and become stronger. The consistency of change is evident in everything we do, from the clothes we wear to the technology we use, change is inescapable! I am reminded of the place change holds in society every time I look at my ipod (My sister and I call it the Pood, it's more fun to say). When I bought "the Pood" two years age it was the best MP3 one could have! I saved my money for five months to be able to afford the BEST apple had to offer. A mere 730 days later, my poor ipod has been one-upped multiple times, by the same industry that created it! I'm not bitter, I accept that this is how it is, and I've come to terms with that. In fact when my sister bought her new iphone, I silently chuckled because I knew in six months tops, she would be needing to invest in an updated model in order to have the latest and greatest. Most of us would agree that change is inevitable. However, for something that is so CONCRETE, change is also quite the paradox.
Personally, change is swirling around me, even when I would rather it just chill out! At the same time, nothing is more difficult for me to create in my own life than change! For the past two years of my life I have been in a whirlwind of questions. Questions about who I am, what I want and how I get there. Throughout this time of transformation, I have been faced with the biting realization that areas of my life need to CHANGE if I hope to get to where I want to be. Initially, I feel hope with this realization and immediately jump into action, planning all the ways my life will improve. I do things like make workout plans, determine to read more books and watch less tv, join a couple of new organizations and try to spend more time in the present moment. Those things are awesome, and I do them... for a week or two. Then it's back to the old routine. Perminate, positive change and I have a relationship that closely resembles the relationship of Holly Golightly and Paul Varjack in Breakfast at Tiffany's. I realize that I do in fact need change! So I run to him with open arms, ready to embrace all the positive things that only a relationship with him can bring. But after a while, I get restless and my eye begins to wander. "How dare he try to box me in!?", I think in frustration. The annoying thing about change is that he is as demanding as he is constant, expecting boring things like DILIGENCE and PROCESSES... Ugh... Isn't it obvious why a girl like me (and Holly Golightly for that matter) would have such an off and on relationship with change?? My problem is this; I try relentlessly to plan where I'm going and what I'm doing., and for some crazy reason I got the idea that things I want to plob into my lap with little effort or stamina on my part. I spend all my energy on creating lavish plans for my life and when they don't materialize before my eyes I quit, back to the drawing board, just to do the same thing again with a new objective. Well people, after a couple years of aimless ambition, I'm sick of it! Much like Paul won over Ms. Golightly, Change has swept me off my feet. I'm ready to accept his demands of commitment and hard work, because I know in return he promises the life of my dreams, filled with purpose, happiness and definitely a designer handbag!
While I realize not all of us have the same issues to resolve, I think we all have a resistance to change. I do believe change is inevitable, and unfortunately it's often unwanted and inconvenient. However, in some ways it is our benevolent benefactor, providing us with unlimited chances to "get it right". Perhaps, if we could learn to view change as something that works WITH us, we will no longer need to view at as something that just happens TO us. And that, my friends, in the words of Robert Frost, could make all the difference. :)
Amour* Katie
